10/24/2014

It's not perfect until it's about to change

There is an off-Broadway musical called "I Love You, You're Perfect, Now Change." Even though I've never seen it and I suspect it's about marriage and relationships, I've been thinking about that phrase a lot lately.



It's no huge secret that I hate change. Well, maybe I don't hate it, but I'm definitely scared of it. Sometimes it's kind of a thrilling scary feeling, but mostly it's just a dread filled scary feeling.

We're moving, you know. We've been building a house for almost a year. No, it's not some huge mansion that has to take that long. Rather, it's just Karma's cruel joke of stretching out the dread and the fear and the unknown for as long as It can.

Yes, I'm excited for a new house - our house. It will be brand new, never lived in, everything picked out by us new. All ours. But, it's a new neighborhood and a new routine and a new grocery store and new drugstore and different Target. If Hubby had his way, it would mean a new school for the boys; but I refused. That's too much change for them. Okay, me. Too much change for me.

I wasn't thrilled when we bought our current house. Although it wasn't exactly sight unseen, it was sort of. You see, we were living on Long Island with three babies under the age of two, and Hubby really did not want to fly back to Nebraska to look for houses. His sister was moving out of her house, so he decided that we would buy it. Though it was the perfect house for us - four bedrooms, three car garage, and a fenced back yard - it wasn't what I had pictured as perfect when I was thinking of our first family home.

We spent years and a lot of money making it perfect for us. We have a huge master suite, a beautiful kitchen, and a cozy family room. And the icing on the cake is this:

We love our outdoor fireplace.


Who wouldn't want it, right?

It was never our plan to live here permanently. We always wanted to build our dream home. But time and the destructive nature of four little boys changed our plans. We are building another modest home about the same size as our current one. We're adding another bedroom so all the boys can have their own, and of course an open concept living and eating area. For me, the best part about our new home isn't the huge, walk-in pantry or laundry that is separate from the entrance to the house; but it is the flat private street we will be on. I can truly say to the boys, "Go play in the street," and I know they will be fine.


For more than 10 minutes, Slim helped a caterpillar cross
our new street, and not one car drove by. 8 cars probably
would have driven by on our current street.

We currently live on a busy through street which is a hill and a curve. I hate it. It wasn't something I realized before we bought this house. We also had virtually no young kids in the neighborhood for our boys to play with.

But now, they are older and more careful on their bikes and friends from school have been found within blocks of our house. Every evening after homework, there are boys here or our boys are there. The other moms and I joke about how it's a shame that they are all playing now that we will be moving. They will have to find new neighborhood friends, and I will have to get to know those moms and those kids.

Just when it became perfect, it's changing; and that's giving me anxiety.

Potential buyers have looked at our house; and while the feedback has been mostly positive, it's some of their negative comments that are getting to me:

"We're concerned about all the oak wood."
"The basement was a disappointment."
"The carpet needs to be replaced."
"It's too close to the neighbors."
"The trees in the backyard look sick."

I polished all of those cabinets myself, thankyouverymuch, and I know the basement isn't totally cool and the wood is oak, but the house was built in 1988. The carpet is beautiful and is only dirty in one high traffic spot and the trees have been lovingly trimmed every year and our neighbors are soooo quiet and nice. Oh, how I will miss our across the street, very nice neighbors.

Our house is perfect.

Only we want a change. We want a change. That's good, right? Change can be good. When the Earth changes from this:





to this:



it's good.

When babies grow and learn to walk and talk and use the potty it's good, right?

When little boys become big boys and help their brothers and get good grades and develop interests and friends, that's good, isn't it?

And when life moves forward, even though it's a little scary and a little uncertain and even if it means you have to change some things you don't really want to change, that's okay, right?

Right??

I often make the mistake of complaining to the sticking point. I mean, me. Stuck. Stuck in a rut and a routine that, while it is comfortable, it really doesn't make sense anymore. While easy, it's not the best for me. Change is not always easy. Sometimes it's really hard. Sometimes we gnash our teeth and dig in our heels and whine and cry and complain about it.

Then it comes anyway. And it's just fine. In fact, it can be pretty perfect sometimes if we would only give it a chance.

I try not to get too excited about change. I don't want to set myself up for a disappointment. I guess that's my own personal defense strategy. Don't plan, don't get excited. Just let it happen. Change happens, whether we  I like it or not.

I was talking to someone the other day saying that just about the time that things become perfect and easy, that's the time they need to change. Without change, after all, how can we grow?

Even if something is not perfect, it doesn't mean we can't make it that way. We've done it before. I think we might be able to do it again.






10/16/2014

Spending an Evening with David Sedaris

David Sedaris via ticketomaha.com 
Ask any humor writer who their idols are and inevitably the name
David Sedaris comes up. A popular humorist, comedian, author, and radio contributor, Sedaris is known for his self-deprecating and autobiographical wit. Born in New York in 1956, Sedaris discusses his middle-class life with five siblings, his education, a speech impediment, his Greek heritage, the numerous jobs he's held and places he's lived, and obsessive behaviors such as his use of drugs.

I appreciate anyone who can take a look at their life and speak openly and honestly about it. Adding in a dash of laughter about oneself is just icing on the cake! When I heard that he would be performing his one-man show, An Evening with David Sedaris, in Omaha on October 30 I was intrigued. I asked some humor blogger friends what books of his they would recommend, and I downloaded them eager to learn more.

After reading Me Talk Pretty One Day and Holidays on Ice, I think it's safe to say I'm officially a fan. Reading about him as a fifth grade boy pretending his speech therapist was on a covert government operation (my fifth grade son is in speech therapy) and reading about his quest to become a Macy's Elf during Christmas time (I have memories of seeing Macy's all lit up for the holidays when we lived in New York), I found his stories to be hilarious and relatable. I'm on to his 1997 best-seller, Naked, now; and while I feel like I know what to expect, I suspect Sedaris is the kind of writer who keeps you guessing what he is going to say next.

Sedaris is a three-time Grammy Award nominee and a New York Times bestselling author. He is currently touring the country reading his new and unpublished works, holding Q&A sessions about his work, and signing copies of his books. If you live in or around the Omaha area, he will be performing his show An Evening with David Sedaris on Thursday, October 30, at 7:30 pm at the Holland Performing Arts Center in Kiewit Hall. You can purchase tickets here through Ticket Omaha.

I personally can't wait for the show and to learn more about this amazing writer. Hope to see you there!


*I was comped with two tickets from Omaha Performing Arts to Sedaris' performance for this post, but my new found love for him is all my own.